Get lost

In the world of music... PANDORA is your bestfriend when your feeling like the worlds giving up on you, and you feel like your falling to fast. Whoses going to catch you if you fall? Don't let yourself hit the ground. Music soothes my soul.. Sad, happy,lost, mad, angry.... I wish I had wings, maybe float on top with the clouds and just listen to music..

-I'm still broken inside and out. I hope one day you'll get out your glues and glue the pieces back together.. I'm just waiting on you.

Xoxo, I love you!

Same shit different night.

I'm I wrong because I wanna stay here and love someone who doesn't love me anymore. He says, " lifes unfair, you just have to deal with it." yes it is unfair. And it hurts alot.. No one knows the pain you go through but yourself. We can say we've had a sallied experience but not the same exact one.. why do people that's been in the "similar" situation come back and be a hypocrite? why would they go and hurt some one esle when they know exactly how it feels to be hurt and in pain? How big is your pride when you hurt someone that's done nothing to you? That's a question I'd like to know and understand..

When is enough?

I'm still so mad, angry and sad.. Idk who to run to. I don't have anyone even though everyone tells me I can always call them and talk to them, that there always there, but I don't feel that comfort to run to them not just comfort but I've always been those types to keep everything to myself the only person I tell everything to is my husband but he's no longer my other half or my best friend.... My heart aches, my head hurts.. Who well catch me if I fall? I sit here every night and cry, I listen to music to try to sooth my soul. How do I deal with all this? Why can't I just walk away and have no regret? I was a strong person, now I'm so weak. What do they have that is so much better then me? Why does it hurt so much...

From Now on

I well be a stronger person. I well leave the past as the past. I well rise above everything and anything that well try to sink me down. I well live my life for my son and I. I am only human so I well grow and better myself. I well achieve all my goals! I will live life with no regrets! I am still breathing! So I'm still alive!

weight loss

So I'm 172 as of right now!! 46 inches around my waist! Whoot! A month ago I was 196, I'm doing good! Proud of myself!

Yor either a loser or yor a winner

Lol.. So we have this family losing weight competition going on.. I'm planning to loose major weight.. My goal in one month to be @ 140;) that means eating healthy and working my ads off!! Who ever wins first place comes home with 450!!! Whoot Whoot! I need a gym membership dude!

@my best

Trying and trying... Idk when this well stop..

a warm feeling

idk today was alright.. kinda just tried to stay happy all day. loving the song young wild and free at the moment.. boosting up my happiness, and i also uploaded some pictures into my photobucket which where pictures for ideas and inspiration.... i cant wait hopfully it comes through though,, LOL.. very excited... i think first i need a sewing machine or need to learn how to sew.. LOL

Always thinking...

I'm thinking........ Should I just go check? No gas though ugh....

Feeling heavy...

Yesterday night was okay.. But it's always drama first then make up... I'm tired of writing trust me, and I don't wanna yell but I feel like sometimes he just doesn't understand... Like the whole point of calling me when he gets off.. Duh it would make life so much easier if you'd just call so if I do come check up on you and your cr isn't there you wouldn't be the fool.! I swear....!!!! Ugh... For some reason today my heart feels heavy.... And I'm sad... Not because he doesn't love me anymore I'm sad and mad at myself for caring so much... Ugh need excise today! I skip one day and I feel hella fat again! I wanna lose 20 pounds by feb! Let's do it!!!

Ugh...

I freaking officially ate tooooo dang much.

Finally.

The oil in my car is changed!! Good! But my baby needs to get a check up! I named my car Taylor because I couldn't decided if it was a girl or boy. Lmao!!

hello 2012

so todays been idk like always some what crazy... and im always on pandora listening to music.... just thinking my day away.. picking up the pieces.. im strong and i well be able to do this! i believe 2012 well be okay.... i really need to leave the past alone... move on with life.. loose weight and live life! take care of my bugga boo! and make sure hes goood and well and thats all i need to worry about!

-gaoliavang

Scandalous

Ass guys that act like they're playing the game right when there always getting caught? Like are you fucking serious? Hahha bitch your the fool!

What a beginning for 2012

And already we both are bickering.. Idk how much more I can take.. He's already gaving up.... He tells me all the time.. Why do you have to rain on my parade.. Why do you have to drag me down? Why can't I just be happy.. I'm sorry...

songs

at the moment....

you da one
already gone
dance (ass)
make me proud
they know
niggahs in paris
here comes goodbye
my immortal
everytime
better half of me