Get lost

In the world of music... PANDORA is your bestfriend when your feeling like the worlds giving up on you, and you feel like your falling to fast. Whoses going to catch you if you fall? Don't let yourself hit the ground. Music soothes my soul.. Sad, happy,lost, mad, angry.... I wish I had wings, maybe float on top with the clouds and just listen to music..

-I'm still broken inside and out. I hope one day you'll get out your glues and glue the pieces back together.. I'm just waiting on you.

Xoxo, I love you!

Same shit different night.

I'm I wrong because I wanna stay here and love someone who doesn't love me anymore. He says, " lifes unfair, you just have to deal with it." yes it is unfair. And it hurts alot.. No one knows the pain you go through but yourself. We can say we've had a sallied experience but not the same exact one.. why do people that's been in the "similar" situation come back and be a hypocrite? why would they go and hurt some one esle when they know exactly how it feels to be hurt and in pain? How big is your pride when you hurt someone that's done nothing to you? That's a question I'd like to know and understand..

When is enough?

I'm still so mad, angry and sad.. Idk who to run to. I don't have anyone even though everyone tells me I can always call them and talk to them, that there always there, but I don't feel that comfort to run to them not just comfort but I've always been those types to keep everything to myself the only person I tell everything to is my husband but he's no longer my other half or my best friend.... My heart aches, my head hurts.. Who well catch me if I fall? I sit here every night and cry, I listen to music to try to sooth my soul. How do I deal with all this? Why can't I just walk away and have no regret? I was a strong person, now I'm so weak. What do they have that is so much better then me? Why does it hurt so much...

From Now on

I well be a stronger person. I well leave the past as the past. I well rise above everything and anything that well try to sink me down. I well live my life for my son and I. I am only human so I well grow and better myself. I well achieve all my goals! I will live life with no regrets! I am still breathing! So I'm still alive!

weight loss

So I'm 172 as of right now!! 46 inches around my waist! Whoot! A month ago I was 196, I'm doing good! Proud of myself!

Yor either a loser or yor a winner

Lol.. So we have this family losing weight competition going on.. I'm planning to loose major weight.. My goal in one month to be @ 140;) that means eating healthy and working my ads off!! Who ever wins first place comes home with 450!!! Whoot Whoot! I need a gym membership dude!

@my best

Trying and trying... Idk when this well stop..