Hello:)

Wow its been so long since I've updated:) but yeah anyways vie been going to school lately finally back on track huh? And I'm really liking it. Which is so weird???? Haha but anyways been so super busy always running around. But anyways that's it basicly:) haha bye

Congrats

To dao&thai its a BOY!


Can't wait to meet him:) any names yet? So excited:)

Today's a better day

Today is alit better then any other day:) I'm actuallie smiling:)

Marriage

Why is it so hard for us to get along? Idk anymore. He really wants his freedom. And I'm the selfish one. Dads still weak and he's home now but I get to take care of him and my son. And he doesn't see that maybe my wife needs help? Idk anymore I'm ready to run and escape this I can't take it anymore. I don't understand why he doesn't understand that I don't need and ask for time away. But he needs all that. Things just don't wanna fall into places.

And I was thinking

Like always I wanna lose weight. But how???? WTF am I gonna do to Lise weight? Ehhhhh? Nothing really workS! I wanna be a new me! At least 140 again. So i can look at myself.

Another

Long day. And as we now my fil is still in the hospital. If you can please add him in your prayers:) that would be great.

I feel

Stressed out! I still feel hurt. Idk what to say or do anymore. Things are just falling outta place. The more I think the more I wanna runaway!



Once you get married it's like the piece of your you g life disappears in to thin air and you take other steps to become a new you. And once you have a child you take those advice everyone gives you and you use them. But I feel like he'll never learn or use them. And he won't let go of his past. And now that he's opened up I feel like it's a lil to late.

&&my

Fil is getting better. So that's a good sign. Me and Ricky are working things out too which is even better:) I'm just glad things are going good. Thanks to the lord:)

Kinda tired

Of being fat. Like it doesn't bother me but then it does. So many people see you for the outside only and never the inside why is that? Idk either.I would really like to drop back down to 140 or something I'd be really happy:) kneed to do this for myself. More door my son because I don't want him to grow up with out a mom. Goodness ive been trying maybe nit hard enough but it doesn't really work. I'm annoyed of myself! Maybe I do need to really start this. Once and for all.

Its a stressfull time

Gosh there just so freaking much going on. Me and Ricky been having trouble. And now my rather in law is in the hospital again. Idk what to think anymore. So gosh sad:( well I'll up date. Bye.

running on empty

its like the worst feeling. i just hate it! idk. im trying i still love him. its been almost 4 yrs i cant let go now. well grow old together.

And god loves me

Yes I know. He's so god to me. Thank you lord. I hope I get the job. I need it!

Today

I feel like a whole new person. Got a new do. I'm so stressed . I'm so sad . Idk what to do anymore. But today I change as a new me. And I'm never gonna let him drag me down no more. :) life and there lessons.